I was watching Scrubs just today and well...one of the most memorable things I have ever heard was said during the show. Here it is as follows:

"Things rarely go the way you want them to...so sometimes you just make due with what you get. Endings are never easy, I always build them so much in my head that they can't possibly live up to my expectations that I just end up disappointed. I'm not sure why it even matters to me so much how things end here. I guess it's because we all want to believe that what we do is very important. That people hang on to our every word. That they care what we think. The truth is, you should consider yourself lucky if you can even occasionally get to make someone, anyone feel a little better. After that, it's all about the people you let in to your life. And as my mind drifted to faces I have seen here before...I was taking the memories of family, of co-workers, of lost loves, even of those that have left us, and as I rounded that corner they all came at me in a wave of shared experience. And even though it felt warm and safe, I knew it had to end. It's never good to live in the past too long. As for the future it could be anything I wanted it to be."

When I think about just what is being said...yes it can be condensed, but none the less...it is still powerful. I guess I really start to reflect more on my life on a regular basis and try to hold on to things in my life more now than ever and I can feel needy and I suppose it is the reason I feel hurt by a lot of things more now a days than when I was younger. I start to realize that as I get older, the things from the last 10+ years have to change. Nothing I really want to face, but it is a fact that people grow and move on. I kind of want to just hold on to things the way they are.

I really have no idea what the future holds for me. I just hope that I am blessed with as much in the future as I have been in the last decade. With that being said...

Happy Birthday Heath!
Happy Birthday Lauren!

I will be home soon and we can celebrate!